March 17, 2011

thoughts for a late night...

thoughts.............

a year ago i was in australia. i was learning how to drive, get around brisbane, adjust to a new life. adjust. 
right now i'm not liking that word.....adjust. i didn't change myself to fit the environment, i adapted. i adapted to a new lifestyle on the other side of the world.
i'm getting antsy for a new adventure, a new change, a new life...........is that wrong? does this show that i am not content, not thankful for the blessings God is giving me now? yesterday on my way home from work, what a beautiful day....come out of nannying and watching 2 poor sick little boys all day long and get outside at 6:20 and oh my goodness gracious! what a beautiful day! so warm and lovely outside....what a huge blessing! and then as i'm driving down the canyon, there is a hawk like right next to my window...literally. and wow! what a huge and awesome sight and joy!  and after a moment of enjoying it, i wanted more--like to see a coyote run across the road. whaaat? i just had a lesson about being thankful on sunday. :/ that hurt, i wasn't thankful for the hawk that God had shown me. so....am i not being thankful for what is given to me now? i am so thankful for the blessings, the life, the work, the joys, the weather, the family, the friends God has so graciously given me.
missions has been on my mind a lot. quite a few different people have come up to me asking if i was going on a missions trip soon.  i'm going to chicago in july with the youth group at holladay risen life.  we are going with an organization called world changers........love going to world changers.  and now i get to be a youth sponsor! i'm really excited....really excited!  i commit my life to missions.  God, here is my public statement......i love it.  i want to go and do something for the Kingdom. salt lake, seattle, somalia....wherever You send me, i will go.

life. life is good.  and i can say that and truly mean that.  i'm at peace in my life (other than wanting a change...:)..). and this means that i am happy....school is so great. it's almost over!--the semester anyways. another 6 to go? heeeeeeehooooooooooo. anyways....it's so great, doing really well in all my classes...and enjoying them.  made a friend, fatima.  thanks God for answering prayers!  we hang out every wednesday before psychology and study, talk, walk around......it's so great!  and i believe that i am where God wants me to be.  i help out with the youth at risen life and we are going to idaho for a youth conference, ski-and-share.  love it.  risen life is great, love the sermons.  i am reconnecting with old friends....the ones that i grew up with from back in the day and it is a huge joy that we still talk.  when i hang out with old friendships, it brings back a piece of childhood and happy days--and i love that!

for the weak stomached friends...don't read this paragraph::
on monday night i was visiting with some friends and back in the day....i was the belching queen! i was famous for it, i won a contest and have rocked people's socks off (literally).  i was awesome!  and so my friends were belching and i wanted to join in.  the problem was that i had not had soda for over 3 years, so i thought it would be fun to try it and do this awesome loud belch.  i ended up throwing up all over their table, into a dish towel, a bowl, my hands, my jacket, the chair, the floor.........and my friends were so great---gagging and helping me clean it up. true friends right there....i couldn't handle the smell--wretched. 

ok, let's see.......life is good.  life is peaceful.  love life.  thanks God!

January 19, 2011

school.

i love school.
i love my classes, teachers, peers, subjects, campus life, homework.....let's see how long that one lasts. :)
i have not procrastinated yet! i have written a paper and turned it in 9 days before it was due....say what? who is this person? it's because school is a huge blessing and that God is so good that i want to do well and do my best.
i was thinking about how we give 110% in the things that we enjoy and not so much in the things we don't enjoy. we are supposed to glorify God in all that we do, so i concluded that i want to give God 110% in all that i do....whether i "enjoy" it or not. so God, i'm up for the challenge. what will life look like if i did give 110% and gave You the best of all that i have?
anyone else up for the challenge?

tonight at hole (hands on love experiment) we were challenged to help someone that is out of our way to share Christ's love with them.  i'm up for this challenge too. and a bible reading marathon of reading all of luke (for this session) in one sitting. wooo! God is doing great things!

God is so great!

December 8, 2010

school.

i am officially registered for spring 2011 semester at slcc. woohooooo! mondays and wednesdays ONLY! say whaaaat? such exciting news!!
i am going into psychology. and i am taking: cultural and human experience, general psychology, orientation to education, and western civ.
yea!

start jan. 10th, 2011. yea!!

November 13, 2010

football.

i am my father's child. i just yelled at the tv.
let's go utah!
utah vs. notre dame. saturday, november 13th.

my dad got to go to chicago and go watch the game with some of his buddies.

i miss my dad. i really like spending time with him, just following him around and talking with him.

November 7, 2010

God lives in me?

forgiveness. i pray for that for a certain someone everyday. and that i am filled with the joy of the Lord. 

did you all realize that God, the Creator of all, the Creator of the tiny dew drops that cover the green blades of grass, the petals of the colorful flowers, the multicolored leaves that lay on the ground and in the trees that cover the mountains, the tall tall mountains, the grey clouds that linger above my head getting heavier and heavier with different shapes and sizes of snowflakes that will one day fall. the Creator that makes it rain and snow, sun shine....i have been realizing that i need to rely more on God and not what the weatherman says. the weathermen can predict what the weather may or may not be like, but God can totally change it and do what He would like for it to do. and our Creator, Lord, Friend, Mighty One, Light of the World....He lives in ME and He lives in YOU! think about this........all that power, strength, creativity, love.....lives in YOU and ME! woah baby! 
dwell on it.
thank You God for sending me Your Holy Spirit to live in me. 

things are going a lot better in life. i die to myself daily. and i look to the Lord. my Friend. 
i may be "alone" but let's just stop here and get over myself. God has blessed me with so many people. my friends may not be the "one" that i want, but hello...it's not time. i need to stop and be thankful for the blessings God has so graciously given me even when i don't deserve them.
my dad was talking about a sermon that he heard today at the church he attended. and it was about how God gives us gifts/blessings and how we feel like we have to work for them and try to earn them instead of just accepting them. wow! totally rocks my whole process of thinking. i always want to work hard to try to earn what i get instead of just accepting things from people. when someone gives me a gift, i am always thinking of ways how to give back to them to even out the "score". how do i repay God for sending Jesus, His ONLY son, to die a horrible death to take away all of my sins so that i may be given eternal life with Him! i can't. i can, however, just freely accept it. and love Him and because i love Him, obey Him. there have been a lot of life lessons that i've been learning this month. bsf and the study of isaiah...loving it!; college group; bible studies; small groups; dad; mom; friends; family...........

i love talking with my dad. 

i love relationships. 

God is great.

September 28, 2010

ahhhhh. relief.

i talked to my wonderful loving wise friend yesterday and ahhhh, relief.
the sky is the limit.
everyone else is stepping in different directions, it is just a weird time of life.
it is ok to be feeling what i'm feeling, the loneliness will pass.
this is the time of life where i can do whatever i want....and i will take advantage of it.
the sky is the limit.
i am not tied down to anything and i will never get this time back....so let's get to partying!
thanks God for my good dear loving friend. i treasure her.
i am, satisfied.
relief.

September 26, 2010

hahaha. life is so funny somedays.

you think you're almost out.....until the "monster of life that sucks" pulls you right back in again.

September 24, 2010

alright alright.

life is good. it always has been always will be.
i am moving forward in life and away from the funk of life.

i am having a thankful heart. i am having a heart that is looking towards God and being satisfied with Him. He is all i want right now.

i feel at rest.

September 22, 2010

beauty.

today is beautiful.
the clouds. the rain. love it. love it love it love it!

September 20, 2010

wanted: friend.

wanted: friend.

until this "friend" comes around......
right now it's time for me to get to work on this friendship with God.
He's all we need right? well then why is it so hard somedays?, to be content with that?
why do i make it such a struggle? why do i fight trying to find something, someone "better" than our great and awesome and loving and powerful and amazing God?
i can't and i never will.

September 16, 2010

oh dear.

so today......well let's just say it was alright.
i got out of bed at 4:30 freakin am to go take my parents to the airport...because they are cool like that and like to go celebrate my mama's big 4-0 birthday! happy birthday mama!....and so i had a nice time with them. i love the mornings. i want a friend that likes to be up early in the morning like me. maybe. i don't know. i haven't ever met a friend that likes to be up early with me. i guess i kind of like having the mornings "to myself" and have just my kaitlyn time and do what i want. so it's nice. if i get a friend that likes to up early like me, i will reevaluate this statement. i don't want a happy hello world let's shout it out type of friend...just someone who appreciates being up early...no. just kidding. i want my alone time.
anyways. i spent the day washing my car while karissa washed her car...inside and out. super clean baby! watch...it will rain tomorrow. psh.
that was probably the highlight of my week...past couple of weeks. just spending time with my sister.
these past couple of weeks have been tough. i'm just down and super tough on myself. and this is more of my venting blog. i don't think anyone reads my blogs anymore. so it's fun just to write to myself. it's faster to type than to write with a pen in a journal. so....journal it up baby. so to say that this is my venting blog is not to let anyone give me pity. i'm not seeking it. i'm just stating facts.
and let's see....i think i have celiac disease and i think i'm lactose intolerant and i tweaked my back today.
and it all started at 4:30am. time for bed. and it's before 9! woohoooo.
i have to find a friend to take to the utes game on september 25th. i want to take hank, but he may be in zions or have just gotten home and it might be too much for the little guy. this is depressing. i don't know who to take.
wanted: friend.

ha. i sound so depressing but i honestly don't care. i am depressed. life sucks. stupid jonathon.
i'm moving to seattle.
start over in life.
i will consider it once i go to church on sunday and hear the last of the series on the sermons on song of songs.
i hate facebook now.
i am not a fan of this "battle" of life. i am not finding much joy. i refuse to seek it right now. and once i get over myself....then i'll probably want to stay here and keep fighting the story called life.

life. you. are. hard.

September 9, 2010

update.

3 months of being home. there have been the ups and downs of being home. a lot of adventuring, learning, life.
so let's see....i am now nannying 3 days a week for my great friend hally and her beautiful family. i watch hank (5), wyatt (2), and colt (7 months). and i love each moment i get to spend with this family. i love work, except that it doesn't feel like work, it is such a joyful experience spending my days with them.  i go up on mondays at 2 and spend the day with them and the night there, so that verne and hally may go out on a date night; which is very important...and super cute. i love how beautiful they are to each other and how they choose to spend their date nights. my favorite date night of theirs was when they went on a tandem bike ride together. how romantic. oh and the drive up to their house is amazing, it is quite a drive, but i love it. i love it because it is my alone time with God and my thoughts. and i get to drive up the beautiful mountains up emigration canyon and watch the trees change every week. and the joy of being there every week is to watch how much each child changes, especially colt...oh goodness...how fast he changes! i just love every moment of spending time with the hanssens. they are such a joy and there is peace and joy when i spend time with them. and did i mention that i get to spend the day with my great friend? she is such an encouragement and a huge blessing to me. thank You God for this huge blessing!
ok, i will do more posts on the hanssens later....i still have 3 months to update on.
so i started working in july. in june, i hiked a few times with jenna and jael, my family, friends. we went to stewart falls, lake mary, twin lakes...
in july i hiked to lake blanche with jenna and jael, a week later my dad and i were defeated by twin peaks. that is where i almost died, but God saved me. short story...i slipped on a rock and slid for over 100 feet and by the grace of God, He saved me. and i was scared because i slid past my dad and there was nothing he could do. if i had kept going, i would have slid right off and fallen off a cliff. right now all that is left is a big scar on my leg, and some scarring on my upper legs. so no more swimsuit modeling. :)
in july, i started taking up running more seriously and i am running with trigena halley. she is such a great encourager and motivator. we are going to run in a half marathon in 5 weeks in moab. i am excited. we are going to run 11 miles tomorrow, so in 2-3 weeks we should be running 13 miles and we are just going to keep improving our time so that we can finish in 2-2 1/2 hours. wow! who would have ever thought?
august....just working. i nanny 3 days a week, nanny for mike and crystal york and their baby girl caroline (8 months). i watch her 1-2 times a week every other week. and then amara (22 months) once a week. and when i have free time....babysit. i am thankful for these busy days and all these blessings from God. wow! thanks God!
september....i got another job tutoring. not teaching but helping apply skills to studying and homework time. i am excited for this job. it will be fun. thanks God!
the plan is to go back to school in january at slcc and do my generals and then go on to the u and do psychology with a childhood development/adolescent development minor. this is the direction that i feel God is leading me now...and plans may change but right now i am being obedient and trusting Him.
right now i feel content in life. and bitterness is gone.
jonathon came back and i had not seen him since march 5th. and i saw him september 5th. do the math...6 months. and i hadn't talked to him since july. so....praise God, bitterness is gone and i am content.
life is great. God is great.

June 9, 2010

home.

i am home.

i am struggling. i don't know what to do with myself. before i let the thoughts and the realization of being home sink in, i am going to sleep. 2 days without sleep has done no good to my body.
but i am also rejoicing.
i love hugging my mama, daddy, karissa, kellie and kristopher, giving topaz a belly rub, seeing my dear friend hally and 2 of her boys and the joy i got to see from wyatt being so social, seeing mountains, going for a walk, eating my mama's food, the ending of a crazy long wednesday spent all at the airport, snuggling on the couch and falling asleep to a movie, thunderstorms, summer smells.
i am home. and it's great.
the parts that i was struggling with was unpacking and looking at my room. i don't need a converter for my appliances, i don't have to choose between which button to push for the toilet, i don't have to find a shirt that smells decent to wear it...i know have a whole closet full of options, i hate texting...well not the part where i get to communicate with people, i hate the fact that i "have to" carry a phone around now in order to do that.....now i just don't let texting control my life. it's ok to leave the phone and answer when i feel like getting to it.
the adventure in australia has come to an end.
but the adventure at home is just beginning. and it is off to a great start. thank You God for the safe trip home, that i get to see my family, the rejoicing of reuniting, the joy of being alive, the joy of giving. thank You. thank You for the adventure in australia and that it was a huge part of my life where i got to experience YOU! a little more and was just continually blessed by you daily. and thank You for being with me now and continuing to bless me. thank You for the joy of the adventure of being home.
thank You.
i am home.

June 8, 2010

ugh...

i'm too old for all nighters. one more hour left until i leave for the airport.....staying up all night makes me realize how excited i am to go sleep on the plane. that's another....5 hours away though. oh well. i'll be busy from now until then.
didn't i just get here? seriously....where did the time go?
it was well spent and well enjoyed.
quick facts. i'm freezing. but i'm having my last cuppa tea in australia.
i'm tired. but i'm excited.
i'm......loving life. even with this delusional state of mind.
did you know that when you are awake for more than 17 hours, you can be considered drunk? learned this fun fact off of law and order....but then looked it up. so it's a fact.......i'm 3 hours drunk. pahahahaha!

last few hours....

it is....12:55, wednesday morning here.....this is the latest i have stayed up and been moving around since i have been here. all nighter is off to a good start. after everyone went to bed i worked on making the bed with new sheets, looking for some duct tape to cover up a hole that i found in one of the bags...luckily it's not the souvenir bag. but the trip was unsuccessful. hopefully i will remember to ask john for some before he takes me to the train station that will take me to the airport. ok. my words are starting to slurrrrrr. i'm having to focus very hard on forming sentences. 
i am struggling on staying awake. but i will do it. only 5 more hours until i leave for the airport. so let's see...today was probably one of the most enjoyable days with olivia.
i'm going to make this short. i was going to try to distract myself from my sleepiness...but it's a no go.
so i went to kindy, was mauled by all the little friends, firemen came and i got one last look at the hot aussie men, took olivia to our coffee date, and went and saw my friend heidi, came home, skyped the fam, drew pictures with livi, saw one last sunset. and then the family time with the family....mmm. leaving is hard. but i guess in order to grow...there have to be endings to some things in life. 
and in order to see my mama and karissa and my daddy and kellie and kristopher and all those other people that i love so much.....i have to go home. and gosh...these mood swings are crazy right now. i'm ready to go....let's go people! get a move on!
oh gosh........so...i'm going to work on memorizing 1 john 1:1-4 right now....my new goal is to memorize the whole book. and it's doable. and you memorize a verse a day...so today is verse 4....well june 8th is verse 4. and verse 5 is for june 9th. time to get a roll on....i have two verses to do....i'll do verse 9 on the plane or at the airport sometime during today...since today will go for....let's see...29 hours today. aww. something to be thankful for...i have sometimes had a want for more time in the day. i get a whole 5 hours extra! thanks God! 
ok. well....peace out girl scout.

June 7, 2010

well..........

today is monday. i leave wednesday morning to go h-o-m-e. home. oh home. family. friends. mountains. summer.
which means i have to leave here in order to have that. well. right now, i am ok with that. this has been such a wonderful adventure, and it still is. it's just not over yet. so soak up the rest of what's left of it. so yesterday was the last time i would go to hillsong, at least on this adventure. and it was wonderful. and later in the evening, the family and i went up to mount coot-tha and looked at the city. it was beautiful. we spent the evening sipping on riccadonna and eating cheese and crackers. and then i went and had octopus...calamari if you want to be all fancy schmancy. and well...i don't need to try that again. but the evening spent with the family was very memorable, just watching the sunset and looking at the city and enjoying one of the last times with the family. tonight was the last time we all ate dinner together as a family. and it was just full of laughter and great times. the kids acting like they always do and me trying not to laugh so that it doesn't encourage their behaviour...uh oh. how is this going to work when i become a parent, if that's where God wants me to go...i sure hope so! oh well...these kids are wonderful enough (and i only say that because despite all the struggles i have had with them, i sure do love them to death. this trip wouldn't be what it was without them...) as i write this..xavi is jumping in my room and trying to scare me...he got me the second time! oh how i am going to miss walking out of the bathroom in the early hours of the morning and have a heart attack from him scaring me. ha. can someone please keep this up for me?....i am going to miss it. no matter how angry i get at these kids, i treasure every moment with them. they just want to make you happy. and you can't help but smile at them when they achieve a goal, understand a concept, and all the other daily surprises that happen throughout each day. aww....if this is just a glimpse of what it's like to have a child...oh man, i can't wait to have one of my own one day and rejoice in his or her daily growth! awww. ok. "mother moment" over, it won't happen for a long while and i can just rejoice in the daily growth of the kids that are in my life right now.
so today....olivia did my hair...she made it look like how i did hers, 2 ponytails....it's cuter when your hair is short and you are 4 years old. but she was so proud for her work, so i went to kindy with it in and she showed it off to all her friends. aww. cute!! and i went and dropped off thank you letters to the people that made a difference in my time here...everyone i met were just huge blessings. thank You God for all these people that You placed in my life. thank You thank You thank YOU! they were so wonderful and relationships are a beautiful thing. thank You!
and then tanya and i went to riley's 3k cross country race....daaaang. he got 2nd for the school and 18th overall....and he ran the whole time! and i can be proud in him....and sorry...another "mommy moment"...woah! to be so proud of your own kids...i love that feeling!
ok. and then let's see.....today. well. not much else. another beautiful sunset. daaang. these are master pieces out here!
and so the plan for the rest of the time here:
tonight. try to go to bed at a reasonable time and to fall asleep and sleep the whole night. we shall see....i have been really anxious the past couple of nights. nights are my struggle points of time. i just lay in bed and i am exhausted (i work out to tire my body out and read to tire my mind) but i end up just laying in bed for hours and hours. so maybe after a couple of days of this maybe i'll sleep tonight. it's my last night sleeping here. aww. that makes me sad to say that. so i'm going to enjoy it!
tuesday morning: wake up early, go to school with tanya and riley and drop them off at school.
then come back and get ready for the day...then at 10, go and see the firemen that are going to olivia's kindy class. need to have my one last look at these fine australian men.....daaaaaaaaaaannnnng! :)
and then go see my good friend heidi. and talk to her and tell her see you later. thank you jonathon for teaching me this concept of: it's not goodbye, it's just see you later. because i would love to see everyone one day again, and who knows. maybe i will. and it makes it easier to part.
and then take olivia out of kindy and go take her on a coffee date with me. and if we have time, go visit the police station. i still have to get a picture of a police car to show you all back home. they are so funny. i cannot take them seriously. and their little uniforms. i have the urge to play checkers when i see a cop. haha! and then pick up tanya from work. and then pick up the boys. and then hang out with tanya for the evening. eat dinner. make the kids' lunches one last time....and then the plan is to stay up late...or just pull an all nighter so that i will sleep on the plane. and leave the house at 6am on wednesday...and then be at the airport at 6:45, check in....and fly home at 10. home. home. home.
so i leave australia at 10am on wednesday.
it will be 6pm tuesday in utah.
i get to la at 7am la time...8am utah time....midnight australia.
and then get to utah at 1pm wednesday.
5am australia time on thursday.
so....what the point of this is....i will be flying all day australia time (all night utah time) and so i will want to sleep when i get to customs but i will need to be awake at that time and to get to my correct terminal and flight stuff when i'm in la...and that la airport is huge and thank goodness for the 4 hour layover...especially so early in the morning. but i need to have some sleep. so if i pull an all nighter, i won't be able to help it but sleep on the plane. and it will make the 13 hours fly by a lot faster. so....that's the goal. and i will accomplish as much as i accomplish.
and then..........i can't believe it. 3 months felt like i just started. and it's coming to an end. and i just got adjusted to everything a couple of weeks ago. why is it ending? :(
it's not the end...it's just time to go and work on a new challenge.
and i still have yet to figure out what that is....maybe working on being who i am here at home. not going back to the old me. but fighting to keep this new me. i like who i am in Christ right now. who i was 3 months ago....no thank you!
well....what can i say...? life is good. see you on the upside!

June 3, 2010

why?

why do i need to love these kids? why should i? what have they given me for them to earn my love to them? why be kind, why share Your love? hmmm? why God? why?! i don't want to. i give up. 
keep going. keep going.....
wow. what a great night. and i say this with the best of attitudes. thank You God for this night. 
oh how in a moment i can let my anger rise and flare and just want to lash out at the children! and who do i think i am?...miss high and mighty...the ruler and the judge of what's right and fair. who am i to even say that? woah...God, You are the Judge...i am in no way fit for that position. i think of the shack when i judge someone. that is not my place. and it is always a very humbling experience when i recognize my actions.
and for me to be selfish and not want to share God's love...well isn't it supposed to be...if i am so overflowing with God's grace and goodness and am just overflowing with His love, aren't i supposed to want to share it all? the thing is....i want to keep it all and i feel like i have the right to "share" it with whomever i see fit, the people that I LOVE. well. that's why i pray, God please love these people....i can't and i don't want to honestly. so You do it. well....i believe that in order to share that love with what i have, i have to let go of myself and just let God live through me. wow. what a great way to end the day...too bad it doesn't always happen where i want to start the day this way. and i have these life lessons when i am tired and exhausted from the kids. and the truth is, i am not even around the kids all day. i think that it is just such a huge learning lesson and it's hard working on letting go of myself and what i think is "right" and letting God live and be REAL and the RULER of my life. and that's the daily struggle i am going through day in and day out. and it is truly exhausting...for me.
anyways, the point of this post was to say what a great God we truly have. "keep going. keep going..." don't give up, PERSEVERE. and those words are just so comforting to me, especially when they come from my King, my Lover, my God.
keep going. keep going. fight the good fight (2 timothy 4:7).
and woah...this came to mind:

The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' matthew 25:40 [niv].

And the King will reply to them, Truly I tell you, in so far as you did it for one of the least [[a]in the estimation of men] of these My brethren, you did it for Me. matthew 25:40 [amplified].

Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.' matthew 25:37-40 [the message].

God, please just change my heart. please help me to love these children. and all that come into my life. change my heart to be one like Yours. 
persevere. keep going. discipline the mind. discipline the emotions. 

keep going. keep going.....

June 2, 2010

awww.

it's one of those days. one of those...oh-this-is-probably-one-of-my-last-time-doing-this moment. so treasure it is all i can think to myself. but....right now...i just want to mope in my sadness. and yes, i can choose to be happy if i would like so that i'm not sad, but right now i want to mope.
today i went to indooroopilly with tanya and we went shopping and it was my last time going there. i enjoyed going and having coffees with her there and looking around at all the shops and going to the grocery store on level 1, which is actually the second level. and going up to the 4th floor and going and visiting all the stores.
friends...my advice is just make the most of everything.
and i am thankful that i did. i have really enjoyed all my time here. it has truly just been a huge blessing, day after day. can i just say how good God is? yes, i think i have the freedom of speech to do so...GOD IS SO GOOD!
i also went to the grocery store at mount ommaney and bought food...friends...i have a whole grocery cart...oh i mean trolley...full of treats. so eat up eat up!
and the reason for writing this whole post today was because i am writing thank you cards to everyone who made my trip so wonderful and just thanking them for the memories and their kindness and the memories that i created with them...and that makes me sad. a little hard trying to keep a happy attitude. so to make myself feel better i tell myself it's ok to feel this way. it just means that i created relationships and it's not goodbye forever. who knows...i may see them again. and all things do have to end one day so that a new adventure may start. well. that's the end of this story.

June 1, 2010

june.

june. is. here. the last days of being australia are here. truly a bittersweet type of thing.
today i woke up just so happy. and then....i realized that i actually have to leave this adventure. so sad. when i think about home and that i get to be home so soon, i dread being here and time moves slowly. and then i think about here and leaving here and how much i love it and the family...(finally) then i get so sad. where is the middle ground?...well i believe that is where i just enjoy the moment and am truly thankful for what God is blessing me with NOW! well...that's the hard part of the lesson. learning to truly enjoy the moment and to be thankful for it.
so as of right now...i am so thankful for what God has blessed me with and just look on the bright side of life.
today i learned how to say banana and chocolate correctly....and no and here. alright alright....getting on a good australian speaking roll....already have the twang in my accent says john's mum.
love the kids. love cooking. love packing the kids' lunches every night after doing the dishes. love it when the family is around. i'm going to make the family orange chicken dinner on sunday night. and ice cream cake! did i ever tell you all how much i love baking? it's so fun! and after eating all day...gosh....i work out in my room every night. i love that so much. and...i just need to work on the not eating all day part and then i will be ripppppppeeddddd!
life is good. just soaking up all the greatness of this last week here. only 7 days and 15 hours and 6 minutes until i fly home! oh gosh....why the countdown in hours? why even countdown? ugh. enjoy. the. moment. that's my prayer today. and tomorrow. and probably every day.............oh well, at least i get to work on something each day. :)
life is good.

May 30, 2010

men in stubbies.

so i went to an afl game last night. interesting. combination of....basketball, soccer, football, hockey, wrestling, ufc, netball, volleyball, cross country, and any other sport you can think of. it was interesting.
anyways. brisbane lions were playing the collingwood magpies. and the pies are ranked number 2 in the nation. well. we got our butts spanked...UNTIL!...the 3rd quarter (each quarter is 30 minutes long...ugh) and we pulled ahead with one goal. and then 4th quarter...we just kept winning and winning and winning. final score was 88 to 80.
and if you really want all the rules of the game...here you go:


Australian rules football
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Australian Football League
Nickname(s) Australian rules football, football, footy, Aussie rules, AFL
First played 1859, Melbourne, Australia

Australian rules football, also officially known as Australian football, is a variant of football played outdoors between two teams of 18 players, plus four interchange players, on large oval-shaped grass fields, with a ball in the shape of a prolate spheroid. The game is commonly referred to as football, Aussie rules or as footy. In New South Wales and Queensland, where it has lower popularity, it is often known as AFL, after the Australian Football League.
The primary aim of the game is to score goals by kicking the ball between the middle two posts of the opposing goal. The winner is the team with the higher total score at the end of the fourth quarter. Except for special circumstances, if the score is tied, a draw is declared.
Players may use any part of their body to advance the ball. The primary methods are kicking, handballing and running with the ball. There are rules on how the ball can be handled, for example players running with the ball must intermittently bounce or touch it on the ground. Throwing the ball is not allowed and players must not get caught holding the ball. Unlike most similar sports, there is no offside rule, and players can roam the field freely. Possession of the ball is in dispute at all times except when a free kick is paid. A distinctive feature of the game is the mark, where players anywhere on the field who catch a ball from a kick, are awarded a free kick. Australian rules is a contact sport, in which players can tackle using their hands or use their whole body to obstruct opponents. Dangerous physical contact (such as a pushing an opponent in the back), interference when marking and deliberately slowing the play are discouraged with free kicks, distance penalties or suspension, depending on the seriousness of the infringement. Frequent physical contests, aerial marking or "speckies", fast movement of both players and the ball and high scoring are the game's main attributes.
Details of the game's origins in Australia are obscure and still the subject of much debate. Australian football became organised in Melbourne in May 1859, when the first laws of the game were published by the Melbourne Football Club.
Australian football is a major participation and spectator sport in Australia. The most prestigious national competition in Australia is the Australian Football League (AFL), which culminates in the annual AFL Grand Final, currently the highest attended club championship event in the world. The AFL has governed the sport nationally since 1993 and internationally since 2005 through the AFL Commission and the AFL Laws of the Game Committee. The game is also played at amateur level in several countries and in several variations.
The playing field, which may be approximately 150 metres (or more) long goal to goal and 135 metres (or more) wide boundary line to boundary line wing to wing. Approximately 3 to 5 metres of boundary line space from the boundary line to the fence is also required. The centre square is 50m x 50m. The curved fifty metre line is 50 m away from the centre of the goal. For professional Australian Football the 50 metre lines should not intersect the front or back edge of the centre square (which is why 150m from goal to goal is considered about regulation size (some grounds are longer)). Adjacent goal and behind posts are 6.4 metres apart. The goal square is 9m long.
Both the ball and the field of play are elliptical in shape. No more than 18 players of each team are permitted to be on the field at any time.
Up to four interchange (reserve) players may be swapped for those on the field at any time during the game. In Australian rules terminology, these players wait for substitution "on the bench" – an area with a row of seats on the sideline.
There is no offside rule nor are there set positions in the rules; unlike many other forms of football, players from both teams disperse across the whole field before the start of play. Typically, each team consists of six "forwards", six "defenders", two "wingmen" (or "centres") and four "followers " (or "ruck rovers"), as well as four reserves who can replace any player at any time. There is a rule which stipulates that only four players from each team are allowed within the 50 m centre square before every centre bounce, which occurs at the commencement of each quarter, and to restart the game after a goal is scored. There are also other rules pertaining to allowed player positions during set plays (i.e., after a mark or free kick) and during kick-ins following the scoring of a behind.
A game consists of four quarters and a timekeeper officiates their duration. In professional Australian Football, quarters are 20 minutes plus time on. Time on refers to clock being stopped when the ball is out of play, meaning that an average quarter could last for 27 to 31 minutes. At the end of each quarter, teams change their scoring end.
Games are officiated by umpires. Australian football begins after the first siren, the umpire bounces the ball on the ground, and the two ruckmen (typically the tallest players from each team), battle for the ball in the air on its way back down.
The ball can be propelled in any direction by way of a foot, clenched fist (called a handball or handpass) or open-hand tap but it cannot be thrown under any circumstances. Throwing is defined in the rules quite broadly but is essentially any open hand disposal that causes the ball to move upward in the air.
A player may run with the ball but it must be bounced or touched on the ground at least once every 15 metres. Opposition players may bump or tackle the player to obtain the ball and, when tackled, the player must dispose of the ball cleanly or risk being penalised for holding the ball. The ball carrier may only be tackled between the shoulders and knees. If the opposition player forcefully contacts a player in the back whilst performing a tackle, the opposition player will be penalised for a push in the back. If the opposition tackles the player with possession below the knees, it is ruled as a low tackle or a trip, and the team with possession of the football gets a free kick.
If a player takes possession of the ball that has travelled more than 15 metres from another player's kick, by way of a catch, it is claimed as a mark and that player may then have a free kick (meaning that the game stops while he prepares to kick from the point at which he marked). Alternatively, he may choose to "play on:" forfeiting the set shot in the hope of pressing an advantage for his team (rather than allowing the opposition to reposition while he prepares for the free kick). Once a player has chosen to play on, normal play resumes and the player who took the mark is again able to be tackled.
There are different styles of kicking depending on how the ball is held in the hand. The most common style of kicking seen in today's game, principally because of its superior accuracy, is the drop punt (the ball is dropped from the hands down, almost to the ground, to be kicked so that the ball rotates in a reverse end over end motion as it travels through the air). Other commonly used kicks are the torpedo punt (also known as the spiral, barrel, or screw punt; the ball is held at an angle and kicked, which makes the ball spiral in the air, like a rugby throw, resulting in extra distance) and the checkside punt or "banana", kicked across the ball on the outside of the foot is used to curve the ball (towards the right if kicked off the right foot) towards targets that are on an angle. There is also the "snap," which is almost the same as a checkside punt, except that it is kicked off the inside of the foot and curves in the opposite direction. It is also possible to kick the ball so that it bounces along the ground. This is known as a "grubber". Grubbers can bounce in a straight line, or curve to the left or right.
Apart from free kicks or when the ball is in the possession of an umpire for a ball up or throw in, the ball is always in dispute and any player from either side can take possession of the ball.
The two tall central posts are the goal posts, and the two shorter outer posts are the behind posts.
A goal is scored when the football is propelled through the goal posts at any height (including above the height of the posts) by way of a kick from the attacking team. It may fly through on the full or bounce through, but must not have been touched, on the way, by any player from either team. A goal cannot be scored from the foot of an opposition (defending) player.
A behind is scored when the ball passes between a goal post and a behind post at any height, or if the ball hits a goal post, or if an attacking player sends the ball between the goal posts by touching it with any part of the body other than a foot. A behind is also awarded to the attacking team if the ball touches any part of an opposition player, including his foot, before passing between the goal posts. When an opposition player deliberately scores a behind for the attacking team (generally as a last resort, because of the risk of their scoring a goal) this is termed a rushed behind. Before the start of the 2009 season, this would be the same score as a regular behind. However, because in the 2008 grand final the Hawthorn Football Club rushed 11+ behinds, a new rule was introduced stating that the behind will be counted and the player that rushed the behind will also concede a free kick in the goal square.
A goal is worth 6 points whereas a behind is worth 1 point. The goal umpire signals a goal with two hands raised at elbow height, a behind with one hand, and then confirms the signal with the other goal umpire by waving flags above his head.
The team that has scored the most points at the end of play wins the game. If the scores are level on points at the end of play, then the game is a draw; extra time applies only during finals matches in some competitions.
As an example of a score report, consider a match between St Kilda Football Club and the Sydney Swans. St Kilda's score of 15 goals and 11 behinds equates to 101 points. Sydney's score of eight goals and ten behinds equates to a 58 point tally. St Kilda wins the match by a margin of 43 points. Such a result would be written as "St Kilda 15.11 (101) defeated Sydney Swans 8.10 (58)" and said "St Kilda fifteen eleven, one hundred and one defeated Sydney Swans eight ten, fifty-eight."
Players generally wear shorts and a sleeveless shirt called a "jumper" or "Guernsey".

The football season, proper, is from March to August (early autumn to late winter in Australia) with finals being held in September. In the tropics, the game is sometimes played in the wet season (October to March). Pre-season competitions in southern Australia usually begin in late February.
The AFL is recognised by the Australian Sports Commission as being the National Sporting Organisation for Australian rules football. There are also seven state/territory-based organisations in Australia, most of which are now either owned by or affiliated to the AFL.
Most of these hold annual semi-professional club competitions while the others oversee more than one league. Local semi-professional or amateur organisations and competitions are often affiliated to their state organisations.
The AFL is the de facto world governing body for Australian rules football. There are also a number of affiliated organisations governing amateur clubs and competitions around the world.
For almost all Australian rules club competitions the aim is to win the Premiership. The premiership is always decided by a finals series. The teams that occupy the highest positions on the ladder play off in a "semi-knockout" finals series. From the 1930s the finals series was usually contested by the top four teams (3rd versus 4th (First semifinal); 1st versus 2nd (Second semifinal); winner of First versus loser of Second (Preliminary final); the winner of Second versus winner of Preliminary playing in the Grand Final for the premiership). Many leagues have adopted a final series involving 5, 6 or 8 teams with a variety of methods used to determine the winner. The AFL finals system is contested by the top 8 teams.
Unlike most soccer competitions there are usually no separate "league" and "cup" trophies. The team finishing first on the ladder is often referred to as a 'minor premier', although this bears little or no significance. In the AFL, this is the McClelland Trophy and is considered a consolation prize. The team that finishes at the bottom of the ladder at the end of the season receives 'the wooden spoon'
It is also rare for promotion and relegation to occur in Australian Rules Football competitions. Most famously, this occurred in 1997. Former South Australian National Football League side the Port Adelaide Football Club founded in 1870 and formerly known as the Magpies between 1902 and 1996 was awarded the second South Australian AFL licence to play in the national competition. It was required to change its colours, guernseys and nickname (now Power) to avoid a clash with the Collingwood Magpies. It entered the Australian Football League in 1997 after 126 years of competing locally. The Port Adelaide Football club remains the only Australian Football club to be elevated to the national competition in its own right, a true recognition of the clubs domination of the local league and its position as the oldest football club in South Australia.

well there you go. thank you wikipedia.